HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Yeah, I said it happy new year! We’re about halfway through August and this month has been so revealing in many ways. Fun facts: August is the eighth month of the year and I recently learned that in biblical terms the number eight signifies new beginnings, resurrection and regeneration. It’s also mentioned 73 times in the bible.
At the beginning of this month I sent my best friend a message that was filled with prayers and motivation as we were stepping into a new month. I was encouraging her to set some solid foundations for her new career, relationships, health, and self care needs. I made the statement to her, that I love this time of year for numerous reasons. I love the season of where summer is winding down and fall is setting in (fall is my favorite season). It reminds me of school in the aspect of we reset and get ready for a new school year. Even as we get older and no longer in school, we should still have that time other than the actual start of the year, to press reset, replenish and gain back a sense of our goals and focus on the things that makes our souls happy. So, I said to her “Happy New Year Bitch” LOL. This time of year is also very pivotal for me, as next month I celebrate my 25th birthday! I’m literally stepping into a new year.
I have a devotional that I read daily (at least try to), I was late for the beginning of this month so I was playing catch up. The very first devotional for August, was an exact sentiment of what I told her, from summer wrapping up, fall setting in, and September starting new beginnings. Reading it gave me goosebumps! August 2nd, is the birthday of my older brother who passed away years before I was even born. Typically, we never truly celebrate his birthday. But the older I get the more I find myself becoming infatuated with him, daydreaming about who he would’ve been or how different our family would be with him around. A month prior to his birthday, I got his nickname tattooed on my wrist and made it appoint that I would do something to celebrate his birthday this year and for the years to come. Ironically, in this new month I have also transitioned into a new job. I am now a pediatric nurse and work with tiny humans. I’ve always wanted to work with children since I knew I wanted to become a nurse, I never really had a true reason why, I just knew I liked kids and that’s what I wanted to do. Every time I tell someone that, I get the same reply “WHY, IT’S SAD AF”. Which is true but never once has that fact scared me or made me not want to do it. I applied to a few pediatric positions since I graduated back in 2017 and never was offered a job, so I settled for other specialties in the meantime. I find it insanely magical for the first time in like ever since his death we celebrated him and I finally got the opportunity to work in pediatrics, I even take care of children who share the same heart condition in which my brother had and that is so dope to me!
The month isn’t even over yet and so many new beginnings have been brought upon me in all forms, but most importantly spiritually! All this has allowed me to become more in tune than ever with God, I’ve always had a relationship with him, but this has allowed me to trust him, his process, and his plans for me. I yarned to feel a sense of my brother, that I thought I could never feel, but God brought him to me in other forms that can’t even be matched or imagined! I never correlated my career with my brother. I never knew why I’ve always been drawn to kids in terms of nursing and now I know why and what purpose I serve. Even with this blog, I wanted to start this for some time, never had the courage to do so, but I’m amazed at the timing and the things God allowed me to go through first, so that I can bring my audience authentic and impactful stories to feed and learn from. This new job not only gave me a sense of peace as far as my brother, but even gave me confirmation in different aspects of my life just alone by the encounters I had on my first day of work! This is the birth of a new year and new beginnings in all ways! When I sent my best friend that text, I never once thought about all the preceding factors that was happening in my life before I stumbled upon my new job and how it plays key roles in my personal life.
There’s times in life where we reach peaks and were on the highest mountain that we could’ve ever thought of, but the amazing thing about life is that once we’re challenged and we over come something, God presents us with something even bigger to figure out and grow from. Growth is a cycle that never ends but brings you a multitude of different versions of yourself that you desperately need at different points of life. That one moment we had as a family to acknowledge my brother and grieve him together, forced us to shine light on gray areas that we needed to water and allow to grow and heal! So, it’s more than a tattoo and job, God allowed my brother to shine through those things to evolve a big and better purpose for our family that’s finally happening! I think those moments were foreshadowing what God had planned and his bigger picture. So, take those extra moments to hit the restart button at any given moment. I’m encouraging you to set new foundations in this new season and allow yourself to be open, patient and aware of the changes taking place in your life. What’s meant for you will never pass you by, but it’s up to you to prepare and get ready for all the things you deserve. This doesn’t just mean to prepare for that career or whatever you’re in search for, but to also plan for Gods plan for your life. God will always give you the desires of your heart, if it’s by his will, but it will always cost you. He will always find a deeper purpose in it all. That means getting deep and personal with yourself and acknowledging the areas and aspects of yourself that are sometimes ugly where you need healing and face it head on. Take the time to prepare yourself mentally and physically, do those small self-care needs, that keeps you sane and energized to fight bigger battles to embrace a new season in your life.
Happy New Year Loves!
